Yeah…. it is not going to plan at the moment. But if there is one thing I have learned over the years is never give up!
The weekend just gone I went away with hubby for the weekend staying in a penthouse apartment in Mount Maunganui, it was so much fun despite the rain. We went out for 4 meals: lunch on Saturday, dinner, breakfast on Sunday, and to top it off lunch on Sunday. I over-indulged!
If I am honest with myself I have been breaking my healthy eating rules for about a month now!! I can pin-point where it all started, my birthday. I had some lovely girls make me a surprise birthday cake… they had no idea I don’t eat wheat or sugar. The cake was loaded with wheat and sugar. To be polite I ate a slice (a decent slice), that opened the flood gates. I further indulged that day in other sugary food I would not have normally eaten. I have this all or nothing attitude. If I break the rules once I tend to further break the rules.
Then there was Easter. We went away for 4 day and 3 nights. There was a 40th birthday party, there was a lot of alcohol, there was burgers, there was pizza. OMG!!!
Then there is the evil jar of sweets and the evil jar of biscuits at work. I had been so good not indulging in the contents of those evil jars but once I had let my guard down it was so much harder to stay away. Term 2 a fresh start and I WILL NOT PUT MY HAND INTO EITHER OF THOSE EVIL JARS!!!
We are off again for a long weekend this time to Rotorua which is a great place for fitness – I will be able to run around Blue Lake and the Redwoods. There will be a glass of wine or two with my long-time bestie who I don’t see face-to-face very much these days but when we get home on Sunday afternoon there will be no more excuses!! NO MORE EXCUSES!!!
The problem is once you eat sugar or wheat you crave more. I will need to detox myself from those evils! I find it easy to nip drinking wine in the bud, I am also finding drinking water instead of diet soda easy. In fact I can easily drink 2 or 3 litres of water, although I do need to pee a lot.
So that is my update. I am not proud of myself but I am learning from this. I know what to do, I just need to follow through with my actions, if only that was easy! I am willing to commit to this, it is a life-long commitment that will become a more ingrained habit and one day I hope it doesn’t require the will-power that it currently requires and that it will be more autonomous.